what can you do with your anger?

Have you ever felt that you have so much hate in the world that you can just kill that stupid mother fucker right now! in this instance! if you have a gun in your hands?

I have no idea why but at times frustration just gets out of hand. The same problem creeps up after you try to sweep it under the carpet. Time and again it comes back to haunt you. Frustration and more anger builds up. Till there is no control and you start throwing tantrums, throwing things around, shouting over the phone, at your friends. bitching, cursing but still no relief. You feel like killing the root of the problem but instead unresolved anger gets out of control.

I wouldnt say that I will kill for sure, if you would really put a gun in my hand, would I really kill my boss that brought me so much grief? But then again I may just be chicken shit and smile at him and hide the gun behind my back. Maybe revenge is all you need in life. Simple pranks that will justify all the torture. Let the air out of his tires one day or get him so drunk, strip his pants and smash eye whites over his ass to create the ultimate illusion of sodomy the night before. That's a sweet thought.

But what about family members? You love them and yet you hate them but you cant. Well at least I can't. But I can't tolerate them either. This must be the worst love hate relationship ever. And God really tests your patience time and time again.

Yeah, yeah. Life fucking sucks.